make a rainbow.

i have to sell those shirts to get my dress.
and i have to sell those shirts to save money for october.
and i have to sell those shirts to get my tattoo.

i have to sell those shirts.

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thanks guys.

my head hurts. so does my jaw.
too much computers can do this to you.

somethings real wrong with my lj. damnit.

It's friday night. and i have no idea why i'm stuck at home facing the boring computer.
im supposed to have plans can not come home until the sun rises again.
right.
that happened years ago.

i just couldn't comprehend.
how i managed to lose grip of your hand.
my heart probably lost its way.
like flowers that start to decay.
you're probably the reason for these shields.
i couldn't take what the truth revealed.
i didn't want to know how weak i am inside.
but i want you to know that i really tried.

i know it was for all the wrong reasons.
probably cause i was smitten.
you made my head spin.
but your patience wearing thin.
i was taking too much.
i was your disability and you my crutch.

you tried to pull me closer to you.
i didn't have a clue.
i pushed you into the corner.
i thought it it would make things better.
i didn't think you would give up.
like milk spilled from a cup.
you dont cry,
you simply let everything fall apart and die.

i'm sorry i couldn't love you.
i guess its time for the curtain's cue.
the show is over.
and i've never been lonelier.
but im not sorry for trying.
but i'm sorry for the lying.


jun, stay safe in Indonesia. ((:

I'm slipping away.
I'm losing my all.
Can someone please help me?
I can't take this fall.
Is this too late?
i don't know what to do.
Is this healthy?
Shutting myself away from you?

There are people out there who can find a love so sweet.
Why couldn't it end with you and me?
I didn't mean to chase you away.
Why can't uyou stay for awhile and listen to what I have to say?
I'm sorry for treating you like this.
And i know that you deserve more than this.
I didn't mean for it to end this way.
But i guess I'm sorry is all i can say.

I guess I can't do anymore.
Cause I'll only cause more damage.
You left my heart by the front door.
The pain was more than i could manage.

Why can't we just try a little harder?
Maybe we can make things a little better.
I guess there's nothing left between us.
There's nothing left, not even trust.
How did we even begin?
These word just keep caving in.
Sometimes we can't deny the truth.
Baby, I'm still in love with you.